Just having a tough time sleeping, i know many of you do. Some of us even feeling like crap thinking how much we can improve our life, how to make it better and not doing anything about it.
Heh i like to think that some people reading this might be in the same situation as me, bending on the most unconfortable ways trying to find sleep, checking the phone and looking for tips to sleep, why cant we sleep, what mental disorder prevents us from sleeping.
I decided to do something different tonight and vacumm all my thoughts on a blog. Talk to you about how i feel, how we feel honestly because im sure as hell im not the only one struggling with my racing mind preventing me from sleeping.
What bugs me its that my brain its totally against me, the fucker brings thoughts from the past and the future to keep me in an constant alert and axious state of mind, mixing it with akward situations, politics and strangely some lewd thoughts.
I sometimes try to imagine myself on an island, on a boat, on a wooden cabin in the woods, with the powers of jumper to travel around the world imagining awesome situations and what not.
Then it hits me, my brain starts fightings happy thoughts on how i need to start working on my dreams, how little i have acomplished, how hard is to move to another country or to do something fullfilling that allows me all those fantasies.
Then i argue back "im trying to sleep to have more energy tomorrow and archive more" and then it replies "Then SLEEP" but i cant cause you refuse to shut down!
Jesus chirst i wish we were made with a switch that allows us to shut us down. Or with a plug instead of an asshole to plug ourselves in the wall instead of sleeping.
Oh well i cant do much against can i? Sleep pills are too adictive, warm milk is bullshit, light exersise before bed just put me more alert, counting sheep makes me realize how boring it is.to be a shepard and how you need to stay up to count.
Fuck inmsomnia.
Heh i like to think that some people reading this might be in the same situation as me, bending on the most unconfortable ways trying to find sleep, checking the phone and looking for tips to sleep, why cant we sleep, what mental disorder prevents us from sleeping.
I decided to do something different tonight and vacumm all my thoughts on a blog. Talk to you about how i feel, how we feel honestly because im sure as hell im not the only one struggling with my racing mind preventing me from sleeping.
What bugs me its that my brain its totally against me, the fucker brings thoughts from the past and the future to keep me in an constant alert and axious state of mind, mixing it with akward situations, politics and strangely some lewd thoughts.
I sometimes try to imagine myself on an island, on a boat, on a wooden cabin in the woods, with the powers of jumper to travel around the world imagining awesome situations and what not.
Then it hits me, my brain starts fightings happy thoughts on how i need to start working on my dreams, how little i have acomplished, how hard is to move to another country or to do something fullfilling that allows me all those fantasies.
Then i argue back "im trying to sleep to have more energy tomorrow and archive more" and then it replies "Then SLEEP" but i cant cause you refuse to shut down!
Jesus chirst i wish we were made with a switch that allows us to shut us down. Or with a plug instead of an asshole to plug ourselves in the wall instead of sleeping.
Oh well i cant do much against can i? Sleep pills are too adictive, warm milk is bullshit, light exersise before bed just put me more alert, counting sheep makes me realize how boring it is.to be a shepard and how you need to stay up to count.
Fuck inmsomnia.
